i feel utterly and incomprehensibly betrayed. his actions and excuses have left me feeling empty and alone. abandoned by my best friend and the love of my life. i dreamt of having a family with him. not only did i lose my best friend and love, but also what i had planned for my future.
without going into too much detail, i'll say this...ernest and i are over. we're done and we've gone to a place i don't believe we can ever come back from. his was the ultimate betrayal and i am so angry not only with him, but also at myself for being so trusting.
i don't know if my pain matches my anger, but i know both are immense. i'm not going to bounce back from this anytime soon, but i am trying to maintain some decorum and remain as strong of woman as i can be. i have an amazing support system, from my parents, sisters and other family members, to my bestest girl friends and their wonderful partners. i have so many fun trips planned over the next year or so, so i'm just going to try to take it one day at a time. that's all i can do.
thanks for being so understanding, and i'm sorry if my posts become more sporadic.
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