there are thoughts i'd love to chase from my mind. a "and don't you ever come back" hollered at the top of my lungs. i might not ever shake those thoughts. the ones that seem to weigh me down.
i've been thinking a lot lately, about courage and strength. about
holding on to and defending the things that are important to you, even when
others think you should let them go. i think of women like hilary
clinton, who seem so incredibly strong in the face of adversity, heartbreak,
even when being interrogated over events she had very little control
over. i want that kind of strength and courage.
i've also been thinking about forgiveness. and what it means to
forgive. just because you forgive someone for something they've done to
you, doesn't mean you can forget it. but it also doesn't mean that you
shouldn't. my parents have taught me many things, open-mindedness being
one of them. i think that's the biggest reason that i don't see things in
black and white. i can almost always see all the different shades of
gray.
there are few actions that we as human beings take that come easily.
it's human nature to think of the consequences of our actions. for
me, i often wonder if i'll be causing more problems for my family and the
others i love. will they still think i'm a good person, an intelligent
person, if i make a certain choice? will they see me as weak if i go
against the grain, against what we're all brought up to believe and say will be
our choice if we're put in that kind of situation? i can't know the
answers to these questions, even though they weigh heavily on my mind.
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