in my head, in my heart...

the holidays aren't the same without you; i'm not the same without you. i feel like a zombie, going through the motions but you're there on my mind every second of the day. i immerse myself in books and movies, but each one makes me miss you more. i take riley for a walk before bed and i find myself staring into the stars wondering which ones you searched for several hours before. i want to be able to communicate with you without moving my lips, without waiting for the phone to ring. i don't want to wonder if you're okay, i want to be able to be in your mind and you in mine. can you hear me when i call for you?